Now, don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t want to go back to that time. The experiences that I have lived through since that time have made me who I am today and (for the most part) I rather like who I am today. I am far more confident, knowledgeable and (hopefully) wise.
Looking back, I do have regrets, like most people.
I wish that I had continued my education and that I hadn’t stuck with the “safe” business classes. I could have had a career that excited me instead of sitting at a desk. I could have been digging up fossils in Peru right now! On the plus side, I do have a regular paycheque hitting my bank account every week like clock-work and that is something to be grateful for. So many people don’t have that.
Of course, if I had gone for a different career path, I may never have met my ex-husband and I would not have my two wonderful kids. Despite my less than perfect parenting, they have grown into two strong, healthy, intelligent, well-balanced people. That being said, although they are no more perfect than I am, I not only love them but I LIKE them as people as well. That counts for a lot.
With the various twists and turns that my life has taken, people have come and gone. Some of them were around only for a short while and rightfully so. When someone stops enriching your life, you know that their purpose in your life is over. There are those, however, that I do regret losing touch with and who I think could/should have been in my life longer. That is one thing that I am trying to teach my kids. If somebody makes your life better, be sure to nurture that relationship. Don’t let go of a good friendship before its “expiry date” out of laziness or because you take it for granted that the person isn’t going anywhere.
All in all, I really don’t mind being where I am. There may be a few regrets and “what if’s” but I have also made some pretty good choices too.
It’s amazing how somebody else’s birthday can make you think about your own life. It makes me wish that I had appreciated my twenties a little bit more. As they say, hindsight is twenty-twenty.
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