For the first time in quite a while, I’m taking part in Mama
Kat’s Writer’s Workshop.
A post inspired by the word – challenge.
I haven’t written any post in a long time. This isn’t because I didn’t want to.
I wanted to……
I just didn’t know what to say.
I ran out of words.
If I was sad, I could have cried about that and made you
feel sorry for me.
If I was truly happy, I could have shared that joy with you
and made you smile.
I think that the best description of my state of mind in the
last six months or so has been “blah”; not thrilled with life, not miserable,
not angry.
Just blah.
I’ve missed my bloggy friends but haven’t been able to pull
myself out of the cloud that’s been surrounding my head to reach out and share
in this wonderful community.
I need to find a way to challenge myself into feeling alive
again. I’m not sure how I’ll do it but a
way must be found because “blah” is not the way to live. It has to be something that comes from me;
nobody else can do it for me. Maybe I
should take a class, change jobs, look for a hobby, make some lifestyle change,
get laid…… I don’t know. Maybe that
decision alone is the first challenge.
Or maybe the first challenge should be getting back on the
horse with blogging.
I don’t know but I’ll figure it out because I think that
maybe 45 is a bit old to not know what to do with myself.
Perhaps this is a mid-life crisis.
How the hell did I get old enough to utter that phrase?!
Time flies……
Kathy
