One Year Ago

I’m back to Mama Kat’s Writing Prompts today! 

What were you blogging about a year ago today?  What has changed? 

The answer to the first question is easy – nothing!  I went through a period from June 2012 until April 2013 where I didn’t write at all.  I just couldn’t seem to come up with the words to share what was happening in my head.  It’s like I was in a holding pattern where nothing seemed interesting enough to talk about and the things that were in my head weren’t things that I wanted to share. 

This was especially true through last winter.  When I was younger, I was never bothered by the “winter blues” but the last couple of winters have been bleak in my head and, last winter, I really took a plunge.  I’m sure that part of it is the hormonal changes that are happening now that I am in my forties; those same changes that are making PMS more of a “thing” in my life.  Trust me; there are a couple of days a month when you don’t want to be near me!   

It’s more than that though.  My life isn’t entirely what I wanted it to be and I found myself dwelling on that a lot.  I guess that I had a different picture of where I would be at forty three and, for a while, I forgot to be grateful for where I actually was. 

What has changed?  Well, when spring came and I found my “blues” lifting, I jumped back into blogging.  This was a good first step for me.  Sometimes I come up with my own posts and other times I go to places like Mama Kat’s site for inspiration but the important thing is that I’m not letting myself stop.  I don’t have a huge readership but it’s something that I enjoy and hopefully it will be one of the things that get me through this winter relatively sane. 

I’ve also been doing little things to brighten my life.  I am cooking from scratch more rather than buying packaged foods and enjoying trying out new recipes.  My kids have definitely been winners in that enterprise.  I’m making bread and cookies more often too rather than buying them packaged.  We’ve also been ordering out less too – healthier for body and wallet.  My diet is still far from perfect but I’m taking baby steps. 

I also try to get out more even if it’s just out to the mall to window shop or get together with someone for a drink (or two or three….).  I’m trying to feel a little more “connected”. 

I still need to work on meeting a decent guy and doing something to make my job a little more exciting but these things will come (hopefully!) 

Hopefully, this winter won’t be so hard but, if it is, I’ll be sure to come here to complain about it instead of shutting up.  Does that give you something to look forward to or what! 

The season is upon us!

Kat